“The quest for connection was always there in me. Connection is what I’m driven by, and I was lucky enough to notice it when I was sub-6. I can hold one idea, and that’s my idea.”

This is a quote from an interview with Tilda Swinton, an accomplished actor, in the Sunday paper. It struck me, her honesty. She was being interviewed about a new movie she’s made about ending one’s life in the face of a terminal illness (after my sibs’ deaths, it’s a topic I’m a bit obsessed by). 

I am understanding more clearly that my desire for connection has been the driving force of my seven decades on this planet; I am compelled to search out loving, nurturing threads between myself and other humans. Trying to heal childhood wounds.

On this bumpy path I’ve been seeking spiritual connection and faith and belief in the Divine. I define that Higher Power in my own way that I don’t have the skill to clearly articulate. My spiritual practices don’t follow any religous systems and I’m good with that. I’m probably a cliché — as my life hurtles forward to its inevitable conclusion, I am exploring spiritual matters and ideas. They comfort, guide and inform me.

As I do healing work, paying attention to scars and wounds that bubble up, the synchronicities often amaze me. After a particularly intense therapy session, a poem popped up in my email inbox that amazed me. Here is link — click on image of painting above to go to page where link is active (tried to copy the poem here but there were too many spaces between lines and I couldn’t figure out how to tighten things up):

https://sage-ing.org/wp-content/uploads/ODonohue-ForaNewBeginning.pdf

12″ x 12″ acrylic on claybord